The hesitation is first shown in “Race Car.” The poem discusses how things were moving quickly and I didn’t want it all to end. I have to continue to fuel the relationship to keep it going, and the second I hesitate to fuel it, the car will stop. However, I don’t want it to stop, and I know that for something this precious, I can’t let the fuel run out.
In “This is real,” I wrote about how I realized that the relationship is real and it isn’t something I should fear. Despite how much I hesitated, I always remember why I shouldn’t.
“Mindless” is an experimental poem I did that follows the same topic. It is about how I got so familiar with the relationship that I couldn’t imagine my life without it; I didn’t want it to crash.
One reason why I worry about maintaining relationships — both platonic and romantic relationships — is because of time and conflicting schedules. We all have our own lives, and I do not like to have a relationship interfere with them. In “Everyday” I wrote about this feeling. There are times when I want time to freeze so that I can keep these relationships, but we all have our own responsibilities that do not wait.
The last poem, “People,” is about how we understand other people. We can try and write about them in books, but sometimes words aren’t enough to describe people or how we feel about them. We are too abstract to be put into words.